bad. bad. baaaaaad.

i still feel sick.. maybe because, im still sick.. ugh..

im still dizzy.. well, sort of. my cheeks are swollen because of that extraction. too many problems this week. i need God.

first, my groupmates are mad because i wasnt able to submit our lab report on time because i was absent for the past two days. it wasnt my fault i have fever because of extraction! ugh. i soo dont know what to do. im going to school na tomorrow and i dont know how to face them. they say they're not mad anymore but i know they are. what to do??

diba dapat walang minus kapag absent? i mean, how are you supposed to submit something when you're sick. di ba? parang.. hello?! how can you expect me to go to school just to bring that lab report when i'm stinkin sick with high fever? minus points na un? im not mad at anyone of my groupmates. seriously.. i just hate what the teacher did. i didnt absent myself from school naman for nothing eh. konting consideration naman diba? buti sana kung paarte arte lang ako dito sa bahay.

if any of my groupmates are reading this, I AM NOT MAD AT YOU. what right do i have? ako na nga may kasalanan eh. sobrang nahihiya na lang talaga ako kay mafe kasi two times ko na pinasama loob niya dahil sa lab report. alala ko pa ung 1st year, napaiyak ko pa siya.

sobrang nababadtrip lang ako kasi di na ko mapakali kanina nung nagtext si jinky sakin na nasan na ung lab report eches na sobrang galit na siya. she was calling me pa nga eh kaya lang i was still sleeping. eh malay ko ba kasing lalagnatin ako! ay nako.. si sir talaga..

to my chem lab groupmates:


ayoko lang kasi talaga ng may galit sakin. alam ko naman di maiiwasan un kasi sobrang nakakainis nga naman din ung ginawa ko kung ako nasa pwesto nila. so now im saying SORRY. di na mauulit. SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY TALAGA!!!! i hope you forgive me.. mahal ko kayo!!

second naman, i feel soo sick. really sick. i dont know nga how im gonna go to school tomorrow eh. nahihilo ako na medyo irritable. di ako makapagsalita ng maayos. namamaga pa ung pisngi ko. aaaaaahhhhhh!!

third, im having problems in my english class. im starting to hate our teacher. he's soo.. gay. and he's so sadista. uber hirap ng mga pinagagawa niya samin. di ko na makayanan! i still have to finish this "informal theme". take note ah. bukas na ipapass ung draft, ngayon ko lang nalaman. tapos itong pagkahahaba habang hrr, kelangan ko pang tapusin. next week na daw un! ugh. chap two palang ako, 49 chaps un. ayy!! good luck!! ayoko na talaga!! i really don't like reading books! even if you pay me to read one book a day (exept for the bible and other good stuff) i will not pa rin! ayoko talaga! i just dont know why.

fourth, we are going to launch the arts ministry tomorrow. tanya said we'll have to say something on stage after the presentation. ayy. what to do?? my cheeks are swollen. i can't go up there with swollen cheeks? yikes! then i'm singing pa pala on saturday. oh noo!! well, that's so petty. hahaha.

anyways, i know im being so paranoid and pessimistic. this week is such a problem. so many problems and hassles. left and right. i need strength, guidance, GOD.

"Answer me when I call to you, O my righteous God. Give me relief from my distress; be merciful to me and hear my prayer."
--Psalm 4:1

"I love you, O Lord, my strength. The Lord is my rock; my fortress and my deliverer; my God is my rock, in whom I take refuge. He is my shield and the horn of my salvation, my stronghold."
--Psalm 18:1

i know God will help me out. after all, what's there to worry about? diba nga, instead of saying, "God, I have a big problem." Say, "Problem, I have a big God."